In my 6 years I like to think I’ve been as calm, collected and dignified about the expression of my feelings towards your favourite anime as Hanakawa is here.
Seriously though, 6 years. I’ve been blogging for 6 years. That’s as long as some peoples’ careers before they decide they want to do something else with their life. That’s as long as I spent throughout the whole of my second level education, and that’s including the extra year I took where we could all faff about and do extra-curricular bullshit. In anime blog terms, I’m long past the burst of young adulthood at 2 years, past the venerable old age of 4 years old and now approaching dinosaur status. I’ve written over 1,000 posts, and that’s just me. With Shinmaru and Inushinde that jumps to over 1,600.
Recently I’ve been thinking about calling it a day. NOT YET THOUGH so hold your celebrations. Every now and then I get a little niggly voice in my head that asks why the hell am I blogging anyway. It usually goes away within a few days as I power through and get back to writing again, and then won’t crop up again for the next 3-5 months. In the past year though, that niggly voice has remained way more consistent to the point that I’m starting to think maybe this is more permanent. I don’t want my blogging career to fizzle out with a slow, painful death.
But I don’t want to stop yet. There’s loads of posts I haven’t written that I desperately want to write. Posts I should have written but didn’t, or for anime I saw before I started blogging and never wrote about. I want to write a proper post about the symbolism in Infinite Ryvius, a more detailed piece on why Watamote is what comedy should aspire to be, a look at how Death Note challenges you to properly look at the impact of death without cop-outs. I want to get some things off my chest that I never did before. I have already started doing this to a degree, with posts on Kino’s Journey, Chobits and Kanon. But I plan to really kick on with these sorts of posts way more over the next year.
Once I’ve done all these, once I’ve finally written the last piece of why Lelouch isn’t actually the cart driver you bunch of dumb fucks, then I’ll take stock again. If after a year of writing I still find I really want to continue, then I will and this will have all been a false alarm. Heck, maybe even jumping back into all my favourite anime and writing about them will be the ticket to enjoying blogging again. If, on the other hand, I reach this time next year having written all the posts I wanted to and why Code Geass is the goddamn best thing in the world and you are stoooopid for not liking it, and I feel I’m done, I’ll call it quits then.
…boy I really hope Code Geass holds up to a rewatch.